For a long time, I’ve wanted to have an all white room. White walls, white floor. Literally only lights in the room. So then I could go into it and just think- I could study, do homework, whatever. But everything would be white- no distraction, bright so I don’t have to struggle to see, etc.
Right now, I’m wanting this so badly. I feel like I can’t focus on anything.
I tried to explain this to a counselor this morning and totally failed and he didn’t even ask about setting up a second appointment.
And I’m just sitting here thinking not another year of this, oh no.